“When you love someone… truly love them, friend or lover, you lay your heart open to them. You give them a part of yourself that you give to no one else, and you let them inside a part of you that only they can hurt—you literally hand them the razor with a map of where to cut deepest and most painfully on your heart and soul. And when they do strike, it’s crippling—like having your heart carved out. It leaves you naked and exposed, wondering what you did to make them want to hurt you so badly when all you did was love them. What is so wrong with you that no one can keep faith with you? That no one can love you? To have it happen once is bad enough… but to have it repeated? Who in their right mind would not be terrified of that?”—Sherrilyn Kenyon (via onlinecounsellingcollege)
“I once heard somebody say that God had closed a door on an opportunity they had hoped for. But I’ve always wondered if when we want to do something that we know is right and good, God places that desire deep in our hearts because He wants it for us and it honors Him. Maybe there are times when we think a door had been closed and, instead of misinterpreting the circumstances, God wants us to kick it down. Or perhaps just sit outside of it long enough until somebody tells us we can come in.”—Bob Goff, “Love Does”
“2 A.M. You know. The person you can call at two a.m. and, no matter what, you can count on them. Even if they’re asleep or its cold or you need to be bailed out of jail…they’ll come for you. It’s like the highest level of friendship.”—Sarah Dessen, What Happened to Goodbye (via simply-quotes)
“I will climb up to my watchtower and stand at my guardpost. There I will wait to see what the Lord says” -Habakkuk 2:1
Tonight in my devotional i came upon this verse.
For a while now, I have deserted my guard post in a sense. I have left my church home, I have let myself get distracted by the things of God and not God Himself. I have made my own way, built my own new idols and I have left the One who love me more than anything else.
I have lost my love for the One who gave me the world.
"God allows us to experience Him, but not if we’re casual about the prospect. In preparing people to encounter Him, He filters out those who are halfhearted— the spiritual dilettantes among us who are more interested in the things of God than in God Himself."
I yearn for those days where my heart was full and not just a half… well less than half full heart. I yearn for the insatiable hunger for God.
It’s time to get back up those steps of my guardpost and start waiting to hear God’s voice, not because it will lead my life but because He loved me first and I want that truth to fill my life and spread to others.